suggested by Said She"What is your deepest fear? Does it stem from any past experience, or is it completely unfounded?"
My deepest fear is that I will turn 50 and still never have learned how to be proud of myself or be able to acknowledge my accomplishments. If I can't do that, I will never be really happy because my perfectionism will have taken over my life completely.
This is one thing I've learned about myself over the last 5 years. I have never been able to be proud of anything that I do. Even when I was an athlete, getting first place at the state swim meets wasn't good enough because I wanted to be even faster. Even when I would hit my goal times I couldn't be satisfied or proud because I knew I could be better.
Every accomplishment in my life large or small has been something that I always brushed off as being nothing. I think that's a sad thing.
I know whatcha mean. Gotta learn how to let go and just live. I don't know what is my biggest fears. There are a few that tie. But, hang in there. You're young. Just free yourself and everything will fall into place :)
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